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- Get a Job
“ By joining the diamond scepter and
lotus, they should make sacrifices to each other. There
is no worship apart from this.” unknown
I have often said that the best kind of job
for me to get is a something that rhymes with
"snow job". And I really mean that
in the most profound and esoteric type of
ways regarding what I refer to as "sacred
sexual alchemy" meaning what is the fundamental
basis of materialization of desires, of how
creativity actually works here in the illusion
world we call real life. I know that when
other people tell me to get a job they are
referring to something that leads to the idea
of a paycheck and giving your life to the
maintenance and stability of that piece of
paper and whatever you have to do to get it.
However what I mean is the knowledge that
can be applied of energy and how it works,
of life and how it works, of a kind of knowing
about "sexuality" that may not even
be something that most people are consciously
aware of and yet is happening intrinsically
all the time.
know that the power and focus in the male organ when related
to by a female energy with a great intensity of joy and
love and passion and curiousity in the most intimate ways
esoterically leads to the ability to consciously create
reality together brilliantly. I prefer the female relationship
in that regard for the balance of power in that her ability
and her part combined with the male generates so beautifully
when done consciously. Including paychecks.
I suppose the one really is connected to the other in a
sort of way that I wonder how many people really would understand
and put into practice and truly experience the glory of
in this lifetime in this world. To the fullest.
take refuge at my feet, my dear. Be gracious, beloved, and
give me pleasure with your diamond sceptre.Look at my 3-petaled
lotus, its centre adorned with a stamen. It is a Buddha
paradise, adorned with a red Buddha, A cosmic mother who
bestows bliss and tranquility on the passionate. Abandon
all conceptual thought and unite with my reclining form.
Place my feet upon your shoulders and look me up and down.
Make the fully awakened sceptre enter the opening in the
centre of the lotus. Move a hundred, thousand, hundred thousand
times in my 3-petaled lotus of swollen flesh.”
Elixer of Life...Others believe that this magical potion
can be produced naturally by a woman during the act of sex.
It is known as the divine nectar of the sacred waters and
is believed to contain the fountain of youth. Researchers
have shown that this fluid, ejaculated (squirted) from glands
in the anterior vaginal walls, contains an enzyme that extends
the life of cells and hence has been called the enzyme of
immortality. The same nectar is even mentioned in fairy
tales in which the princess is "awakened" by the
kiss of her handsome prince-a metaphor for an intimate,
Christine R. Page M.D. "2012 and the Galactic Center,
The Return of the Great Mother."
this idea of getting a job whereas there was
no idea about starting a business, or being
an entrepreneur, or me doing anything like
what my nature actually is. It was only about
getting a job. Which is an excellent thing
to do, however in my case it is also a matter
of pursuing my destiny.
case any body reading this wants to have a
job, or a better job, which is something I
totally understand then here is a link to
my subliminal audio library. At this time
of this writing I think most of the titles
are available for free download and there
is a title, "Great New Job". Click
here for the page to locate and download
to be clear, I am not against JOBS. I am in
support of people doing what they truly desire
with their life. This story however is my
story, and some of it is about me, and so
in that regard I am sharing that for me, I
feel that my aptitude and skill set and destiny
is more on the lines of being in business,
rather than having a job.
in business, being an entrepreneur includes
having many many jobs. I am just saying that
it was my destiny to be born into a family
situation where I was encourage to "get
a job" rather than to "start a business"
or "be an entrepreneur".
addition to being ultra serious about what
I already said about the power of creation
and the part of the body that is called the
diamond sceptre and the idea of the yoni and
the phallus and the focus on the mysteries
of conscious reality creation with lovers.
remember how that all got started for me. I don't think
it would have the same impact if I had grown up any other
way. I was programmed to be poor by my father and every
body who followed him in so called "Christian"
church. It's called the "Act
are the same people that proposed that in
order to get money I get a job. It was a great
training to build strength of character. Not
because of the horrible psychology mind programming
abuse that I feel that Act of Contrition felt
like to me. Because of surviving it. And many
years later, when I was being a "very
good person" and I had gone to university
and graduated with honors and then felt absolutely
lost regarding getting a job. It was a very
strong experience. I am not going to get into
it except to say I really understand what
people go through and why it happens.
I ended up having three jobs. None of them remotely connected
to what I learned in university. But I had these "good
jobs". It was crazy. I felt crazy because I wasn't
following my own way. As I started to learn how to consciously
create my own reality and get in touch with my higher self
a vision came to me over a two year period to build a business
corporation. It was a very clear and very big vision. And
in faith to that I quit my jobs, all of them. The idea I
had at the time was a heart felt sensation that if I did
not focus full time on consciously creating my own reality,
on following my vision for building this business corporation
then I would never do it.
after quitting my jobs I started doing a business
I was inspired to do that involved my artistic
and my skills I had learned in home renovations
jobs. I felt I had to start with something
in terms of having my own business.
strange thing is I had this dream or vision
as I called it written out for building a
business corporation. And I was supposed to
raise funds to do that. And I had no idea
how. So this vision was something I didn't
exactly have instructions or a clear way how
to do it. So the art for the home business
was my way of "doing something"
in the direction of the big business. Almost
in addition to work I was already doing part-time
"in my own business" with graphics
arts on the first Apple computers and painting
on canvas I started something that to me was
a vision for something more of a "business"
with a product that could be mass-produced.
are some of the paintings I was making and
selling at the time.
I ended up doing was no doubt what I needed to do, as I
feel that is how a vision works. You just keep holding it
and refining it and defining it more clearly until it comes
true. Every body seems to agree, you just hold your vision.
That is how to make it come true. And in doing that it has
such a great force, such a powerful even though subtle force
that it directs your every action.
I had visited the newly opened Japanese pavillion
in the Montreal Botanical Gardens and it really
inspired me. I started to build these Japanese
style screens in my living room and sell them.
The intriguing thing looking back is that
my true vision for the business corporation
involved three components and none of them
was building Japanese Screens.
is an advertising flyer I produced a few years
later with some of the work I sold. These
were beautiful paper and wood hand-made screens.
The one with the tree was featured in an article
about me in a home garden magazine.
when you consider that at the time of the vision flat screen
displays had not been invented or at least were not in the
public yet and that my vision included a division of my
corporation that made electronic art that heals peoples
brains and was viewed on flat screen devices.
you consider that my vision was ahead of its time and so
I was doing a representation of building "flat screens"
that displayed beautiful light. As that is what those japanese
screens are. Incredible even now when I think about what
I was doing as that was not conscious that connection between
the vision and the business. And it was incredible the kind
of passion and drive and commitment to do whatever I could
did end up selling some screens, and also getting started
on the computer with designing artwork and with doing the
things which the other aspects of the corporation vision
involved. Financial Market trading, and healing of the body
through sacred sexual touch.
got put into action at that time in some way.
there is no way that it was being funded because i didn't
make much money and all those things had costs and the monthly
costs of my apartment and my truck and food and you know
all that and I had quit all my jobs.
about six months I ended up selling all my things and put
together about $3000. I remember paying my last months rent
by giving the landlord a painting I had made.
the end I had tried to get just any kind of job, you know
pizza delivery, working in a cafe, but the ideas of needing
large amounts of funding and building this amazing business
had taken hold and before long I was on my way to California
with a few hundred dollars in my pocket and an idea I had
gotten from the "unseen friends" on how to get
out of this human body.
used to think that the transformation in my consciousness
I was going through from being a person who was not consciously
creating my reality to being some body who is was a death-like
experience and in my inexperience about that I mistakenly
thought it was not working out and i needed to exit the
had already tried and failed once in the apartment I lived
in during the time after I had quit all my jobs.
I realize that the pain of the world I was living in, the
world of lies let us say, was so severe that as I was healing
that pain was seemingly unbearable.
had been "lovingly tricked" by the unseen friends
after I pleaded and insisted on their help to find a way
to leave my body. They said I should think about chemistry
and that pushed me to awaken herbal healing powers from
other lifetimes. The method I liked the best was their suggestion
to find a place with cliffs that I felt was high enough
for me to jump off such that when I looked over the edge
I would know for sure I would die if I jumped. They suggested
those precise details and that became a very important factor
in the experience that ensued.
"unseens" has let me know that due to being a
noble soul and needing a dignified death that I should then
assured it would work (i.e. that I would certainly die if
I jumped at that height) step back and then run off the
edge with arms outstretched. That as my body dropped my
soul and spirit would soar and separate from the body and
it would be done.
this day I look for high places and I have never yet stood
on one knowing that I would die for sure if I jumped. The
whole thing has turned into this cultivation of allowing
feelings of immortality, the
power of conquering death, disease, and old age and
extraordinary healing powers and a sense of my destiny.
A metaphor for standing on the edge of the vastness of my
higher self and being with the unknown void state of the
All that Is. And a desire to go to the Grand Canyon Skywalk.
the time through my dialogue with them over a period of
weeks it became clear they suggested a place far away in
Big Sur California. I had never heard of that area. I trusted
them and went with one suitcase, one intention, and a few
hundred dollars. I marvel at the willingness on my part
to do all that and yet how life really pushed me, destiny
pushed me down a road that seemed blind and black and nothing
there at all and yet turned out to be a great new life.
How my unseens negotiated with my own negativity and inner
pain and life situation and we somehow made it happen together.
Strangely. Mystically moving forward.
the dark feelings of pain were with me as I left the cold
and ice and snow of November in Montreal, Canada and found
my way into the warmth of California several days later.
I flew to San Franscisco, took a bus to Monterey, and a
$50 taxi ride to Esalen Center in Big Sur.
had chosen that place somehow not knowing that it was a
worldwide healing centre, or that they didn't take visitors
who walked in off the highway. Reservations were required.
I had only picked it because it was on the cliffs near Monterey.
It's an incredible magic for me to consider that of all
the places I picked to go to it was there. Knowing the black
state I was in and somehow I ended up there. I did that.
Yes with help. But I did that. Some part of me, a greater
me that lives and moves forward with this great life and
great life purpose no matter what the darkness seems to
be. And yes I ask for the day when I am done with all forms
of my own negativity to be this day and from now on a life
of beautiful well-being, enthusiasm, pleasure, joy, compassion
and love always love free of all of my own negativity forever.
think that is partly what I wanted to throw off the cliff
and metaphorically speaking and magically speaking no doubt
that inspired transformation. Emotional transformation,
and life transformation.
the border into the USA the bull necked border guard looked
at my one way ticket and my small amount of cash and whatever
else he had determined and made it absolutely clear that
there was no way he was letting me into the country. (Years
later I uncovered the fact that I have the legal right to
citizenship in the USA through birth and also the same for
European Union but at the time he was considering letting
me in on my Canadian passport.)
said no way and I instantaneously and spontaneously closed
my eyes momentarily and looked up into the third eye and
spoke to one of my unseen friends and said "you have
to help me". I opened my eyes and the border guard
stamped my ticket authoritatively and said "get on
the plane." Just like that. Years later living in San
Diego my neighbor turned out to be a US Border Patrol officer.
I arrived at Esalen Center I had already been craning my
neck from the taxi that took me there to see if I could
see over the cliffs along the highway on the Pacific Coast
on which we were driving from Monterey to Big Sur. I wasn't
really able to see over but I was getting the very anxious
feeling from what I could see that these cliffs were not
high enough at all for my purpose.
at the edge of the Esalen Property on the highway in the
taxi, (I suppose I had asked him to drop me there instead
of driving in) I walked in to their property and miraculously
it was a slow time for them and they allowed me to book
a room for the night. It wasn't just any room as they gave
me a very luxurious place that was normally meant for four
people all to my self.
only paid for one night because I intended to find the right
cliffs and be done with this world as soon as possible.
beauty and healing power of the place and the relative quiet
was very compelling. By the time I got to look over the
cliffs I had enjoyed a very peaceful long nights sleep,
and was steeping in the incredible to me new feeling of
California. The food was great, and the sulfur hottubs.
And then I went to the cliffs and looked over.
as saw that it was not high enough for a certain death at
all, and looked into the crashing swirling sea water below
I started to cry and cry and cry very hard.
more of the pain released. And more healing occurred. I
didn't have enough cash for a second night as I recall I
was about five dollars short. The desk clerk made up the
difference from his own pocket. I was dreaming a lot and
it turned out that later on those dreams were prophetic
dreams of places and people and events in my future.
I felt very done with my past, and that there was no future.
I was very much in the present moment in this beautiful
healing place with the ocean. I arranged to do construction
work in exchange for staying there for another week. The
Monarch butterfly migration was happening and there were
huge numbers of them in the trees symbolizing my transformation
from my old life to my new life.
posted a notice on the bulletin board offering a ride to
Los Angeles and I had met some body else that said I could
stay with them for a while in some town on the way to Los
Angeles. Some body I thought or hoped was going to be my
female true love partner in life that I had just met at
Esalen. But it turned out to be Aphrodite playing with me
again. The first time I had met this woman she literally
came out of the sea naked.
on I thought my dream had come true right then and there.
Aphrodite, deathless Goddess all that my hurt heart hopes
make happen, I know you will, always in love my friend.
In any case that must have been important that I had a reason
to get into that gold Mercedes with the lady going to Los
Angeles so I could supposedly get a ride to go and spend
time with the woman that had came out of the sea. And the
smell of Amber the day she did.
like I said, it was Aphrodite showing herself through that
body and that body was nothing to me afterall but some body
that helped Aphrodite move me along my path.
took the ride and late at night at a pay phone making the
call to that new acquaintance that I thought was some body
for me and me for them and yet was no body other than a
body that Aphrodite worked through that day in that way.
Yes they weren't even answering the phone as I called in
dark night on the edge of my reality and the person I was
driving with said I could come and stay with her in San
Diego. She wasn't even going to Los Angeles! I had never
heard of a place called San Diego. But later I discovered
I had dreamed of it. I had seen the warships in the harbor
in a dream.
a year after arriving in San Diego I ended up living downtown
literally right next to the place where all the naval vessels
docked. I had seen in a vision or night dream this very
nearly exact scenery with a wharf and a naval ship and I
was meeting this woman that I felt was going to be my life
partner. I saw her in that vision.
strange thing is that never worked out the way I thought
it would. We met, we fell in love, I hadn't yet moved to
downtown near the shipyards. It was a composite dream foretelling
several key scenes and events over the next 13 years all
in one vision! In the dream.
she was the most important lover of my life up to that time
and certainly I have no idea how I would feel if I ever
met her again. Our time together was perfect. I met her
when I started giving these classes on manifesting she attended.
They were the first classes where I actually started teaching
or rather doing it together in a group in that regard.
in person manifesting circles I used to run at the start
of my career sharing that kind of thing. It was so fun,
so great. In San Diego. I had this rented house, a nice
place and in the living room where we did it I had gone
out to the desert and brought back the biggest rocks I could
carry. And I piled them in the center of the empty room.
No other furniture except this one love seat and I think
a few chairs. Those were really powerful groups. One week
was on manifesting romantic relationship stuff, the other
week on money. We would go around the circle so that each
person would get a turn saying what they want to materialize
for their life.
then whomever got an intuition or idea for that person would
speak it out. The next week people would come back and report
that they got what they wanted. The power of the group is
so incredible. I loved doing that work but have NEVER had
the opportunity to do that ever again. So strange.
later I was in Norfolk, Virginia and had again felt that
the woman I was there to be with was the romantic life partner
for each other. And it was great. But the thing is that
vision I had at Big Sur, with the warships and the wharf
with this particular lover on it, the lover in the vision
was the one I met and spent time with in San Diego in my
first year there. But I had always felt there was something
not quite exactly right about the warship in the vision.
mean being in San Diego living downtown there was very clearly
so much like that vision. But when I was in Norfolk and
you would walk up the street just about two blocks from
the condo there was a warship, and a wharf next to it, EXACTLY
like my vision.
yet now I was far into the future way beyond my time in
San Diego and with a different lover than the one that was
walking on the wharf with me in that original vision. And
that second lover never worked out as a life partner either.
this job I have of consciously creating my own reality so
far has been a very different kind of life with unseen friends,
and strange experiences, and dreams and visions, and a business
corporation that has been founded and so much of it prepared
and readied for the time when it is meant to be. And a great
amount of experience consciously creating my reality in
such a way that along with that way I was for a time considered
to be a world wide guru on the subject. Rightfully so.
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